World Hunger is Going Down

My choices are suddenly wrong
I never fit in
I never belong
I've tried to get you to see the way that I'll always be
but you just turn your back on my ideas
on the world that I see
There are people hurting everywhere that need our help it's true
though none of it matters
at least not to you
If I could change the world with just a wish or a seed
there would never be another who'd go without
or be in need
and yet I'm the one who can't afford to pay for a meal
but I want to help change others' lives
because to me it's a big deal
yet constantly you're saying that I should give up and quit
but honestly that's not my style
I can't separate myself from the heart of it
Yes I am a poor soul who's often lost in the crowd
but I feel I am to be a force
a voice for those who can't bring themselves to be loud
I am weak and I'm afraid of the choices yet to come
but I am strong in the belief that I will watch this crisis come undone
Just by wearing a whistle I have inspired many who want to stop the Congolese peoples' fall
but that doesn't matter to you not one bit
maybe not at all
I could give up cosplay, snacks, even give up on breathing air
but you still wouldn't listen
you still wouldn't care
and yet here I stand before begging for just a chance to show
that there are people hurting
some may even be people that you know
If you would just open your heart instead of being stuck inside your ways
then maybe you would try and make a difference
that would help someone in need for many days
Now I've said what I have been trying to say for the years that I've been around
the time to act is now
World Hunger is going down

Venting

So this is how it's going to be
You don't think it's right so I can't have what I've worked to achieve
You were the one who was pushing me to do what I always wanted
You were the one who set this whole thing into motion
but now my decisions are wrong
Because we have had trouble in the past I didn't want to tell you the truth
Because I knew it was a risk I was scared to do what was already seen as okay
It's not that I'm mad but you don't understand
It's not that I don't see where you're coming from but I think that we'll be fine
You're worried that we won't be able to handle being on our own
that we won't be able to survive because of one little thing that I think will make the whole situation more bearable
Why can't you just listen to me
Why can't you just take a second to let me explain
If you just saw things through my eyes, then maybe you wouldn't be so quick to judge
This isn't your battle anymore
You're going to have to accept it eventually
Why not now?

The Distance Between

I am a phigment of someone's imagination given life, given breath.

I have a name now, but I didn't back then.

There is a distance in me between who I am and what I am.

I am emotionally distraught.

I am unstable.

I am not able to stand alone.

The distance prevents me from becoming who I want to be.
But the distance doesn't change me.
It is a challenge that must be overcome.
It is something that most will not understand, but that the select few will realize was there all along.
I was a thought, a dream, now I am a reality.
But there will forever be a distance between the real me and the me that everyone else sees.

It's been a Long Time Coming

Alright, so I remember last year saying that I was going to update this a lot more and I realize that I haven't but I've been super busy with life. That's not the point though and you should know that I am going to post from now on. I just have to remember to do so.

Are you all still following me?
Are you even still out there?

Wow, I've been gone a while...This blog needs some updating.

I can't say that I know exactly why I stopped posting. It could be that I lost track of time, or that the days began to run together, or that my family, (those that reside in the house which I currently live in), just got bigger, like eight people now live here bigger. I've tried posting, but the inspiration just wasn't there, that was until today when I read the most amazing thing in my life, posted by one of my best friends who has become my sister.

I'll be updating the blog frequently from now on, even though I technically only have three people who even care what's written here. *tears* However, those people...you've held onto this for a while and I must appologize that I haven't written when I have so much to say. Look for more posts to come soon and remember...just because I don't post right away, doesn't mean that I don't care.

As always thanks for believing in me.

Sorry, I just disappeared.

My mind lately is like a jumbled mess, full of paths and roads that make no sense and lead nowhere. I'm not sure exactly where to go or what to do, which path leads where and what one I should follow so I am uterly confused.

No doubt that it's been a while since I've posted on this blog. I mean, it's been a few days at the most since the last post, but can you tell the jump between that one and the one before it? It's not because I don't have time, because I do, but because everything is so busy now and I'm constantly forgetting that people have a right to know what's going on too.

You're not mad at me right? For not posting, for forgetting about our world that we've created here?

Rebellion

Human right dictates that we are free, that the government does not get to decide who we are, yet day by day our rights are encroached upon. The government believes that it owns it's people, that they belong to it and it al one and that they can take away from those people, take away their creativity, take away their control, their freedom. Someone needs to stop it. Someone needs to start a rebellion.